This week has been such a roller coaster. And it's not the end of the week yet!
My daughters Ashlyn (5) & Caitlyn (3) have so many questions...
Where is Dad?
When can we see him again?
Is he with Jesus Christ?
I am glad they are asking questions and I am able to talk to them about it. I taught through Family Home Evening; The Plan of Salvation. It has cleared up a lot for my girls. Now Caitlyn is asking: "When are we going to die so that we can see Dad again?"
How grateful I am to have that knowledge of Heavenly Fathers Plan for us! I have learnt that "Within the general plan of salvation for all mankind, there are individual plans of salvation for all men and women."( Brad Wilcox, The Continuous Conversion 39)
I recall at the end of 2010 my husband was admitted to hospital with chest pains and as he was lying in the hospital bed I couldn't help but notice what seemed to be a loud voice in my head saying, "What have you got in place to look after your children if anything happened to Daniel?", "Do you have Life Insurance?", "Do you have a Will?" And as I look back, that was when Heavenly father started warning me to get all of these things in order. I have had so many strong promptings to write a Will for both my Husband and I since that experience. But being consumed with everyday life and also telling myself, we're so YOUNG! Why do I need to do a Will now...It just doesn't make any sense? ...I never got around to writing one.
Well it all made too much sense yesterday, and hit me like a ton of bricks when I went to sort out some of our finances and everyone is asking, "Did Daniel have a Will?"
The Lord knows us individually and knows our needs... With every trial since 2010 I felt as if Heavenly Father has been pleading to me "Please Terilyn, Write a Will!" "Make sure you've got your Life Insurance sorted!" He did his best to warn me; but in the end whether I made something of those promptings or not, Heavenly Father had to continue on with his plan.
We may never know why promptings come and when we will need what we are prompted to do. But the Lord certainly does!
One of my husbands best friends posted a quote from Richard G. Scott on Facebook recently "Just when all seems to be going right, challenges often come in multiple doses applied simultaneously. When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more. He therefore gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for your everlasting benefit."
This statement is all so real to me. It feels like it's just been a snowball effect of trials the last few years. Through each trial we have faced, my husband and I would sit down and discuss: Have we done anything wrong? Why has this happened to us?, What does Heavenly Father want us to learn from this? And I'm glad we did.
At the time of those trials I felt they were just too big and too hard to get through...Little did I know that through those trials Heavenly Father was preparing me for the biggest and hardest challenge of all; and that it would be one I would have to face without my companion here to discuss and go through. As tough as it is missing my husband and wishing he was here to council with me. I am glad we did that in the past and I know what to do now because of it.
I am grateful for my knowledge of Gods plan. I am grateful to know that I am a daughter of God who knows and loves me for me! I know that God cares for me and knows me and my children's needs.
With love,
Terilyn x